Errol Milner Clifford 2006-2009

Errol Milner Clifford was born with a significant heart defect and a cognitive disability that prevented him from walking or talking. As we grieved the child we had anticipated, Errol’s full-bodied smile and irrepressible laugh turned our sorrow into joy, and taught us that many of the best things in life are unexpected. Inspired by Errol’s delightful spirit, friends, family, and neighbors rallied to support our family’s significant emotional, physical, and financial needs, through countless acts of selfless generosity. When Errol’s courageous heart finally failed him on December 23, 2009 we were left numb with grief. In these dark hours we listen hopefully for the echoes of Errol’s brilliant laugh. This blog is the story (starting from present and working back to Errol's birth) of the life and times of the amazing Errol Clifford.


Friday, November 06, 2009

Getting to Duke

When your life is topsy-turvy, strange things can make you happy, Last week, we actually celebrated when Errol was diagnosed as having had a seizure. After all, Errol’s seizure wouldn’t leave any long-term negative effects, and now that it was over, Errol could get back to the business of running the country. The only problem was that the underlying cause of the seizure remained undiagnosed.

Last Tuesday was a beautiful day and I took Errol, Owen, and Owen’s beloved best friend Roman to the zoo. The zoo animals were active and alert in the crisp fall air, but throughout our safari, Errol slipped further and further from us. First his laugh left, then his smile drifted away, and finally he just sort of checked out and slumped down in his wheelchair.

While Owen and Roman were feeding the giraffes (they really were, and it’s much safer than feeding the lions) I was preoccupied with the Little Man. By the time we got back home, Errol was fading, and although he was completely exhausted, he lay in his crib moaning and wouldn’t fall asleep.

We knew something was terribly wrong, so Cary bundled Errol up and rushed him off to visit his amazing pediatrician. Errol was whisked into a room, and Dr. Hunsinger took his vitals, examined him, and told Cary that Errol was running out of oxygen. She made a call to the hospital and asked them if we could see a cardiologist. She was told the clinic was closed and that we would have to go back to the emergency room (where the week before, residents had been sent us home with an incorrect flu diagnosis).

But we didn’t really have any options, so Cary rushed Errol to the ER and I dropped Owen (poor resilient boy has learned to live with a certain amount of uncertainty) with his grandparents and raced over to join Errol and Cary. Again, we saw resident after resident who asked us the same basic questions and then diagnosed the flu, “It’s really going around!”

We asked to see a cardiologist, and finally one materialized. I told the cardiologist that Errol’s pediatrician thought he might have a pulmonary embolism or some kind of infection. “That’s impossible!” she replied.

Without giving Errol a physical exam the cardiologist informed us (as we had been told the week before) that Errol had the flu.

“You are saying that his heart is fine?” I asked. “That there is nothing cardiac going on with Errol?”

“That’s right.” She said. “His heart's fine. He just has the flu. Let’s keep him here overnight and watch him.”

“What are you going to watch him for?” Cary asked.

“Well,” the doctor said, “We just want to watch his sats and take his vitals to make sure he’s ok.”

“Errol is sick!” His mother proclaimed, “He doesn’t need to be kept up all night by nurses taking his vitals, and alarms going off.”

“Well, we can just turn his alarms off.” the doctor said.

“But, if you turn off the alarms, you won’t be watching him! I thought that was the whole reason you were keeping him here.”

“Well,” The Cardiologist stammered, “If you are just worried about losing some sleep-“

Cary is one of the kindest, sweetest people in the world. She is not worried about losing sleep. For four months she spent almost every single sleepless night in the hospital to keep her child alive. Suffering through needless alarms, beeps, buzzes, dropped breakfast trays, midnight blood draws, thoughtless nurses who want to chat at three a.m.! She has suffered years of insomnia from worrying about Errol. She gets up at 1:30 every Saturday morning so she can bake until six a.m. when she goes to the farmer’s market to sells baked goods so she can pay off our child’s enormous medical bills. I won’t quote what Cary said to our ex-doctor, but suffice to say, we left the emergency room and headed home to “get some sleep.”

The next evening, Errol was doing worse, and although it was long after office hours, Dr. Hunsinger told us to come to her office. When we got there, Dr. Hunsinger was beside herself. She knew that Errol didn’t have the flu. She was sure that Errol’s problem was with his heart. She diagnosed endocarditis and was furious that the cardiologists at Baptist Hospital were not doing anything for Errol. But what options did we have?

By now it was seven at night and her office was long closed. She feared for Errol’s health. There was one last resort. An old friend and medical school classmate happens to be a world-class pediatric cardiologist at Duke Hospital. She picked up the phone. As she described Errol’s situation, he grew concerned. Could Cary and Errol come to his clinic first thing in the morning?

The next morning, the brilliant and compassionate Dr. Ronald J. Kanter, saw Errol, ran a few test Baptist hadn’t run, and quickly diagnosed endocarditis. (If you saw Errol and read the symptoms of endocarditis you would too!) We were admitted to Duke Hospital and began the six-week regimen of antibiotics we are now faithfully administering at home.

Errol is getting better each day and we have switched his cardiac care to Duke Hospital.

3 comments:

Katherine said...

we love errol and we are so glad he is better!

Allison the Meep said...

So so glad you found a good cardiologist who will take you seriously, instead of treating you like some crazies who know nothing simply because you don't have a medical degree.

I know my ordeal is nowhere near as horrible as what you've gone through, and still go through with Errol, but I spent 2 years having doctors tell me that basically I was crazy and nothing was wrong with me before I was diagnosed with celiac disease. It's a crushing feeling to feel like your doctor isn't on your side and isn't taking you seriously or fighting for you.

Marigene said...

While I do not understand what you are going through, I went through a fraction of something similar with Natalya. For the 1st 10 months of her life no one but me believed anything was wrong with her. She was put in the med/psych ward at 7 1/2 months bec. they thought her problems more behavioral than physical. And blamed me - the "over-emotional" mother for her problems.

I know what it's like to have doctors not listen and tell you you are wrong. It is enough to make me realize that I, too, have the capability to commit murder and mayhem.

I am so sorry for this terrible experience, and so thankful Errol is doing better. I think of you and we pray for all of you daily.

Love, Marigene