Errol Milner Clifford 2006-2009

Errol Milner Clifford was born with a significant heart defect and a cognitive disability that prevented him from walking or talking. As we grieved the child we had anticipated, Errol’s full-bodied smile and irrepressible laugh turned our sorrow into joy, and taught us that many of the best things in life are unexpected. Inspired by Errol’s delightful spirit, friends, family, and neighbors rallied to support our family’s significant emotional, physical, and financial needs, through countless acts of selfless generosity. When Errol’s courageous heart finally failed him on December 23, 2009 we were left numb with grief. In these dark hours we listen hopefully for the echoes of Errol’s brilliant laugh. This blog is the story (starting from present and working back to Errol's birth) of the life and times of the amazing Errol Clifford.


Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Good Night, Sleep Tight, Wake Up Bright In The Morning Light

Last night I put Owen to bed and said “Good night”
And his mother said, “Sleep tight.”
And Owen said, “Wake up bright in the morning light!”

Owen’s words joined with ours to make the song we sang Owen and Errol to bed to every night of Errol’s life.

Good Night
Sleep Tight
Wake Up Bright In The Morning Light

And he always did. And he always was our bright morning light.

When Errol lay dying in his mother’s arms, when there was no hope he would get better, when it was time for his suffering to end, we wanted to do whatever we could to help ease his passage out of life. We unplugged Errol from all the ventilators and machines that were keeping him alive, and then we turned off his oxygen. As his little breaths got shallower and shallower and the space between them got longer and longer we sang Errol the goodnight song to help him let go. To help end his suffering.

Through sobs and moans Cary and I sang, over and over again, “Good night, sleep tight, wake up bright in the morning light.” Errol slowly stopped breathing until he was gone.

We have not dared to sing this song or even say these words since then.
But last night, Owen was ready to sing this beautiful song.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

incredibly beautiful and heartbreaking. i haven't looked at this blog in a while, and i'm not sure what lead me to it tonight. hoping for healing for all of you.

Anonymous said...

beautiful.

Amy S. said...

Thank-you for sharing this, Jonathan. I'm glad Owen was ready for the song. Still thinking of you guys with Love.

Anonymous said...

An incredible big brother and son.

Anonymous said...

just as the first comment, i haven't been checking quite as often, but it's the first thing that hit me when i got out of bed this morning. i'm glad it read this, there is so much hope in your story.

your family is brilliant. i am praying for each of you.

Daniel said...

It made me cry right here and now reading this post, Jonathan. My suspicion is that he did “... wake up bright in the morning light.” It just was not our terrestial morning light, but the celestial one.

In a way, maybe he is now your family's morning light. Perhaps its a sign that Owen is coming to some peace about his brother. Sometimes "out of the mouth of babes oft comes inspiration and hope".

You're in our thoughts always. Peace to you.

Anonymous said...

I too am crying reading your heartbreaking journey. Errol was and is still a fabulous shining light. Thank you Owen for reminding us to continue thinking of him this way. Love and peace to you all.